later i came back. why did i leave? no reason in particular. in fact. i'm not sure i left, i simply did not come. for it seems my life has grown past the confines of a chair and a screen. horses, tools, electricity. students, competitions, school. boyfriends. girlfriends. seems all so happy doesn't it? oh and it is. but there will forever be the part of me that stops and wonders how it all fits together. what the master plan really is. and how we ultimately attain what the plan requires of us. lately i've simply been listening to myself. it seems there are certain "things" i've always wanted to do, or accomplish. not things like "ride a bike" or "go to paris". Things that are not ordane and that are challenging. For a long time i have brushed aside these thoughts, mostly for the sake of the effort required. Four days ago I changed my mind. and here i will begin. and perhaps, here i will write.